Mesarthim Ink Star
Nombre de messages : 302 Date d'inscription : 09/04/2008
| Sujet: Fragment #24 - You need a definition? Lun Avr 14, 2008 12:41 am | |
| Wednesday, March 26th 2008 In Glasgow He smoothly strikes my cheek. I’m lost in his blue eyes. I melt when he does this. But I feel so cold inside. I asked the burning question, the one I always prevent myself from asking, because the answer is always so hard to take. The inevitable question, and in the end I’ve got the inevitable answer I can get from a man. He doesn’t want to answer. I’m lost in his blue eyes, he is full of mystery and I’m so falling for him because of that. And there is this vague answer I can’t take. “You need a definition?” No I don’t… But I would like to. I would love to know where I’m going, I would love to know for once I’m not so much the one being fooled. But obviously I would be in the end, because I can’t believe in this easy relationship full of nice moments. Maybe the thing I can’t take… is risk. This is why I’ve been looking after one of my friends, worst idea ever. I wanted to feel safe. What do I do now? I go on seeing him like nothing changed, nothing happened? “Ok I’ll see you after you finish working, you can come to mine?” “What about your sister?” “Oh she is visiting a friend in Liverpool. I don’t even know if she is coming back." “Alright then, see you later Lily.” Crap why did he have to call me this way now? I get out of the flat he shares with three other guys, quite nice, the English one is pretty rude but I like the Italian one. Might be gay, I don’t really know. I have a last look at him before he closes the door, he smiles at me. I stare for a moment at the closed door. Then I feel that I’ve got a text. Mark. “We need to talk about what happened Saturday.” I bet we do. | |
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