Mesarthim Ink Star
Nombre de messages : 302 Date d'inscription : 09/04/2008
| Sujet: Fragment #45 - Last thought of him Mar Sep 16, 2008 10:13 am | |
| Sunday, September 14th 2008 In Glasgow Not again. My head is aching, my eyes are dry. I push the blanket away, and notice someone's there. Oh God... What's his name again? I stand up, and go staggerring along to the kitchen. Where the hell is this aspirin tube? Needs to kill that pain... now... please...
Craps. How come there are so much craps in this fucking drawer? Ashtray, toothpicks, saucers, ... A spare toothbrush?! And a letter, why the hell...
Woo... The letter. The letter I didn't want to open up out of a grown up "I don't need to open it, I'm over him". Fuck off. I tear it open. Read through it. I'm not seeing well. I think I've started crying, some small moist circles are now all over the paper. Alcohol doesn't make me any good, I'm so emotional now. I pull the letter away. Open the fridge, pull out some orange juice bottle. I'll think about it later. What does it mean to send a "I wish you all the best" letter to an ex, seriously? Especially if it's the occasion to reveal everything you couldn't tell in months? Something about drug dealing, prison... I mean, if he had reasons earlier not to tell, why now, when it's over?! So he can feel, good, relieved? How am I meant to feel? Will he feel lighter, feel like he has done something good, reparing what has been done when it's too late? It's so selfish of him... I feel bitter. I knew I didn't need to read this.
What I need to do is to tell whatever-his-name-is to leave me alone...
Could things become worse and worse? Can I be ever more messed up? Let's try not to think about the past that much. It doesn't do me any good. It just makes me ever more pessimistic. I sip up some orange juice and go to the bathroom to freshen up. Let's go back to what's still to come. | |
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Polaris Ink Star
Nombre de messages : 67 Age : 40 Location : Second star to the right. Either there or Glasgow Date d'inscription : 15/04/2008
| Sujet: Re: Fragment #45 - Last thought of him Mar Sep 16, 2008 12:09 pm | |
| Wow. And I thought Ed was an emotional wrecking ground. I have to say that I did know somebody who was like this and reading this fragment and the one before has brought back some memories of her. Silly girl that she was.
Great fragment. | |
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Mesarthim Ink Star
Nombre de messages : 302 Date d'inscription : 09/04/2008
| Sujet: Re: Fragment #45 - Last thought of him Mar Sep 16, 2008 12:36 pm | |
| The plan is to change that and make her be happy with a man... Lots of work to do now :S There are some new things coming in this week, but I really didn't figure out how I'll be able to that... Did that person you knew ever change? | |
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Polaris Ink Star
Nombre de messages : 67 Age : 40 Location : Second star to the right. Either there or Glasgow Date d'inscription : 15/04/2008
| Sujet: Re: Fragment #45 - Last thought of him Mar Sep 16, 2008 12:56 pm | |
| Yes, she is now engaged to a very nice man indeed after being with him for three years, has a house, dog, cat and a career as a vet. Most people grow up eventually. By the way... why does she have to be happy with a man? She could be happy as a spinster with twenty cats. | |
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Mesarthim Ink Star
Nombre de messages : 302 Date d'inscription : 09/04/2008
| Sujet: Re: Fragment #45 - Last thought of him Mar Sep 16, 2008 9:20 pm | |
| This has nothing to do with what I'm planning for her at the moment... Though it does sound like a very good idea I'm just worried to get depressed in the end by telling the story of someone who is never happy... I do feel like making her happy right now I'm in a good mood ^^ And you are telling me people can change. Let's wait and see what about Amy.... | |
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Polaris Ink Star
Nombre de messages : 67 Age : 40 Location : Second star to the right. Either there or Glasgow Date d'inscription : 15/04/2008
| Sujet: Re: Fragment #45 - Last thought of him Mar Sep 16, 2008 10:20 pm | |
| I like to use happiness in my story for Ed as way of contrast to make him more miserable. A happy Ed is a boring Ed, But this may not translate for other characters. I really do hope she can be happy... but never too happy, life needs some events to give it flavour. | |
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